Wednesday, February 24, 2010
the stories that happened yesterday
i look at the moon
through the empty sky
wondering how it is like to be far away
from problems
complications...
and my eyes hurt
there's something in my eyes
i washed fervently with water
rub it few times with my knuckles
no matter what i do the tickling pain is still there
relentless, stubborn
why can't you just go away?
you are hurting me
i hate you
you suck
please...just go away...
i can't take it anymore
m begging you...
i am depressed
yes i do have friends
but i'm more of a suffer-inside type
anger, sad, confused
combo 3 in 1?
sigh
is this how it feels like growing up?
no fun at all
everyday i wake up
gotta drag myself up
with little motivation
to whatever is inevitable
i suppose so...
since everything seems like crap
please please
i just want to be happy
is that too much to ask for?
every single day
i walk to class
whilst looking down
not much of in a favor
to look up
and acknowledge those i know of
because i am too preoccupied
with the combo of sadness
then again
i don't want people to cheer me up
that will make my problems looked real
and sleep is just a way to escape
my head keeps telling me
"suria you can't go on like this.."
but the other part of me says
"i can do whatever i like. who cares? so hush!"
God can i pull through this?
until when?
when...?
Labels: emo
10:10 PM
