exams exams exams! i've been working my ass of lately for the finals. and honestly i still think that i could have done better for the papers. WAY better.
currently i have so many things in mind. mixed feelings. upset. confused. sad. clownish.
and i bet it's not because of my PMS because if it is, at least i have a reason to light things up a bit by blaming it on the hormones. and the more i think about it, the more upset i am. friends and loved ones have given me the support, but it is always easier said than done kan?
if i have a magic lamp/cawan/mangkuk/teko i would wish for an ability to teleport. i just have to close my eyes and wham! it's Damai resort!!! Holy Crap...
yeap, my not-so-secret getaway. my mom loves it there too. we used to just lepak there without registering as the resort's guest. (shhhh...we sneaked in!) and then my mom will choose to sit by her favorite beach chair and read a novel.
i was free to play around the resort. see hot mat salehs, see hot miss mat salehs, eat fish and chips by the pool bar, swimming, or just stand under the coconut tree with a face that says, "yo, am i or am i cool...?".
when my mom's friend asked her, "aren't you worried that your daughter's all by herself at the pool or beach? what if she gets drowned?".
and my mom just said, "Meh."
i love this spot.
being a lazy bum, i would normally hopped on those huge rocks to get to the lagoon. why waste time and energy to use the staircase i thought?
then it was all about the sea waves. the little holes made by the tiny crabs. soft sand beneath your feet. the salty smell. the wind blowing. old mat saleh couples basking under the sun. kids making sandcastle.
but ever since there's such things like high schools, periods, hiking oil price, resort's renovation and their newly strict entry we've been there for at most once a year! grrrr